One winter morning I went for a walk in the woods and brought my camera with me in case I see something interesting worth posting in this project. On my way home I was fascinated by these posts casting shadows as the late morning sun started to feel a bit warmer. Very contemplative I thought.
The photo evokes in me some consciousness about time. Somehow these posts remind me of the years of my life as if they serve as the markers as I continue walking. I have lived over a quarter of a century and it’s quite exciting (at times overwhelming) to recognize that I have the chance to make a decision in what kind of life I’m going to lead as an adult. I know I got a secure job and I am probably a bit accomplished, to a certain degree, when it comes to my nursing career. However, I’ve been asking myself this question for the past few weeks: what are the things I wanted to do that would eventually bring in me greater joy and fulfillment?
I have answers yet they seem to be incomplete. I desire so many things and there are a few them I am giving serious consideration as to whether or not I should pursue them. It’s not that I don’t enjoy nursing anymore. I am convinced I am simply in a stage wherein I have this strong urge to do something else that’s beyond hobbies and diversions. And it’s strong enough to bother me and compel me to deeply meditate and pray harder as I explore the options I have. I had a wonderful opportunity to speak with my mom over the phone about this and she encouraged me to do what I believe would make me happy as long as I remain in my profession (she explained that nursing will always be in me because it’s what I was trained for). Is this just part of me being young and single? Is this stage ephemeral? Perhaps. But could this be a beginning of an audacious journey towards realizing my full potential and achieving what I am really created for?
Right at this moment I knew the purpose of my existence. What I do not know is whether or not the things I wanted to pursue are true inclusions in that purpose rather than distractions. I hope I do not sound confusing here. If I do, well, let me just have my moment (please).
I am praying for further wisdom. And I am confident that God will reveal to me the things I needed to know if something is genuinely part of His great plan for me.
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